yeah I do miss riding the fun way but she's the sorta horse who I really have to take seriously otherwise things get dangerous and silly with her
If you're feeling scared I would suggest getting some help. No point scaring yourself more, riding is supposed to be fun!
I'm just scared she will try and jump the gate like she's tried doing before she's only 3 years old
Would get her back checked if I were you and go from there x
If she's scared try show her nothing's wrong, try gain trust and confidence with your mare and just try the canter if you don't you'll never know.