Fell off a few times. I once fell on his neck and he decided to jump with me off balanced and i after the jump he wouldnt stop cantering but he stopped at the stables. I know what happend to me isnt as bad as what happend to u but it has the same basic idea. You got hurt mentally. After that happen to me I slowly stopped riding for a year but then i fell inlove with a horse and she looks after me. Find a horse that looks after you. Because now i can jump again. Im still scared but i know my horse will always keep me safe no matter what the cause.