You can get the book online at Tonya Johnston.com. She is a Mental Skills Coach as well as a competitive rider. I hope it’s as helpful for you as it was to me. I often reread the book periodically and do the exercises again as my riding improves. Best of luck!! 😊
Hello Rikkie, I’ve suffered the same thing and still do bit at times. Two things that have helped me are the book Inside Your Ride by Equesrtrisn Tanya ajohnston; and meditation. Meditation was hard for me at first but once I got it I was able to control my fear and anxiety and use it in a positive way when I ride. I hope this helps.