Get a trainer and maybe start back on small cross rails to regain confidence
just take your time and work yourself up to higher levels don't feel the need to be rushed! your horses may teach you something at the level your jumping at that you might for the future❤️ slow and steady wins the race !
Whatever you do don't look at the fences. The more you stare and anticipate the worse it will be, you will miss your distance and either get left behind or jump before the horse. The more trust you have in your horse the easier jumping is.